Rescued: Finding a Knight Who Will Save You from Your Fears

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By Maryann Lorts

It’s like drowning. You’re deep in a blue abyss with monsters circling and in a fight to get hold of the air above your head. Abandoning hope, you let go and just float.

You stare at the fear all around you. The dreams once held dear sink as you seem to anchor yourself in the lies that have brought you down to this point. It’s not sink or swim any longer. It’s about letting go.

Then there’s a hand that scoops you up. Life reenters as you surface in the tide. Pushed ashore, you realize that you needed to be re-submerged to be reborn.

Birth, messy and full of water, brings a new breath of life that lets go of the old. New has come, but sometimes it’s hard to let go and you end up living in bondage to the fears that keep you down.

I have been enslaved to the fear of loneliness my entire life. Never abandoned, yet alone in my days, I found solitude in my make-believe life full of daring dreams and brave rescues. My reality was a drag, and sadness lurked in all lights. I wanted escape and to close the door on all that fear.

It took years of living a fantasy life inside my own mind, failed relationships, and disenchantment to pin-point the problem. I was missing the knight in shining armor to take me away from my aloneness and painful existence. Where was he and when would he show up?

Low and behold, He was always there, waiting for this princess to open her eyes to the truth of His existence.

By this we know that we abide in him and he in us, because he has given us of his Spirit. – 1 John 4:13

You see, I have always believed in Jesus. I knew the stories, never doubted the traditions. I loved Jesus and all that He represented. I just didn’t think that He believed in me. That rescue plan set in motion in the garden seemed as if it wasn’t for me, but only for the elite, the good, and the wanted.  I never believed that I was one of them.

The fear of alone kept me tied to the bottom of the sea without a hope of a life-giving rescue. I was sunk and no life saver was reaching me.

Then He reminded me, in a whisper and then a roar that He was there.

My eyes needed to be opened in that dark abyss to see that He was already there. The knight in shining armor came in sandals and a crown of thorns, not some glitzy clothing riding a purebred steed.

My Knight was my King, and I am His daughter. The storybook tale cannot compare to this reality.

Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. – Isaiah 41:10

As I’ve moved forward in life with my family and responsibilities, I no longer fear the lonely times. I look forward to spending time with my Jesus and talking with Him through my angst and trials. He nurtures me in hope and joy so that we can sever any ties to the ropes that bound me to the past.

I am free of fear. I am free to live a life of purpose without drowning in brokenness.

Has Jesus saved you from a struggle with fear and given you victory? Have you ever felt like you’re drowning because of your fear? Please share!

Maryann Lorts

I am a daughter of the One True King. I need to remind myself of this truth every day. I get out of bed and wake to a tired world and see a need to be a light. My calling may be small among many, but by God’s will, I will run the race that He has placed before me and finish well.

I blog devotionals twice a week at Coming to Light while maintaining a busy homeschool schedule for four children and volunteer opportunities in our church.

My family and I reside in beautiful Hawaii.

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